hopeful.

our december number was 2. it was nice to move up, however we had already been unofficially #2 for an infant girl for quite awhile (over 14 weeks now), so it wasn't too terribly exciting.

was bummed to realize that AGCI was closed today for the holiday. my birthday is on Saturday, so i'm holding out hope for a birthday referral this week. please?!

back to 3.

well, an infant girl referral FINALLY went out, after over 2 months of nothing. so we're back to #3. how's that for being anti-climatic? :P

we've been waiting 529 days.

SO ready, but also trying to be excited in God's will for us and for our daughter.

no progress.

well, our November number remained the same on the girls list. #3 again. and now we've gotten news that we've actually been bumped back to #4. which puts us where we were 3 months ago in September.

i can't believe we used to move an average of 6 spots a month! now we only hear of a referral MAYBE once a month. even less frequently than that lately.

i don't anticipate getting a referral this year.

my hope.

God moves in a mysterious way
His wonders to perform;
He plants His footsteps in the sea
And rides upon the storm.

Deep in unfathomable mines
Of never failing skill
He treasures up His bright designs
And works His sov’reign will.

Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take;
The clouds ye so much dread
Are big with mercy and shall break
In blessings on your head.

Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
But trust Him for His grace;
Behind a frowning providence
He hides a smiling face.

His purposes will ripen fast,
Unfolding every hour;
The bud may have a bitter taste,
But sweet will be the flow’r.

Blind unbelief is sure to err
And scan His work in vain;
God is His own interpreter,
And He will make it plain.

456 days.

so emotionally exhausted. i'm ready to see my daughter's face.

unofficial number.

i know, i know... this blog has kind of died. though i do still faithfully update my timeline!!

as of tonight, we are unofficially #6 for our baby girl. the crazy thing is, we only know one of the families ahead of us. they are currently unofficially #4. so there are four mystery families in front of us. it makes for a pretty suspenseful month!

so so so glad we're going on vacation 9/2 - 9/10. i so need a distraction....

good news.

so we had been anxiously awaiting the news of whether or not the families who were submitted to court after the March 8th MOWA cut off - where they said they would start doing only 5 cases a day - were going to pass or not. there were 6 families who had court last night/this morning, and these were the first ones we knew of that should have officially been under the new way of operating. we got news last week that their MOWA letter was NOT at their preliminary hearing, which was discouraging. but this morning we got news that all 6 families passed court! which means their MOWA letters made it. this is very very very good news. now i know that things can change at any second, and this isn't necessarily indicative of the way things will continue to go, but i am still very thankful that their MOWA letters were written, against all odds. praising God!

in referral news - we've only moved one spot so far this month. we're unofficially #14. i'm not exactly sure why referrals have been terribly slow. hypothetically, they should continue to move at regular pace for the time being, even if there is a slow down with court, etc. there's plenty of room at hannah's hope right now for more kiddos to come in. maybe with these families passing, things will start to move along again. trusting that the Lord has our daughter in His hands and is perfectly working out His plan in His timing. though my heart still very much longs for her.